wow what a long time to not post on this blog...so here we go lets try this again and see if it will help me keep on track and make me accountable for what goes in my mouth.  its the same thing over and over and over and over again, tying to stay on track now that my life is so different.  different is good, different is great but i just can't find how to put me first now with kids, and an amazing busy husband and life in general. so this year is the year that i put (ME) first so how some way i need to work on ME.  each year i pick one little word to work on and this year i have chosen ME as my word.  getting back to eating better, drinking way more water and hitting the gym more is on my agenda.  also i need to work on getting myself back in the habit of going to church on Sundays, i have been lacking on that as well and i feel that i am need of so help in that department as well which will help me to get my body, soul and mind on the same page.  so lets just see how long this will last again :)

why oh why

can i not get my eating under control???? what's wrong with me????  i know what i need to do i have done it before so what's so different now?  is it the fact that i have lost so much weight or the fact that i don't really care?  well i really do care, i want to be back into my favorite pair of jeans and into my cute work close again so what do i need to do? what do i need to change?  i'm just so mad with myself that i just don't care either until i look in the mirror and see what i am doing to my body again and i don't want to look like i did before and its not if i want to loose a 100 pounds i just want to loose 50.  this is a good goal for me 50, 50, 50 so how do i keep this 50 in my face to keep me on track and to keep me looking forward to the end result.  end result will be a slimmer me and a better looking me and more cute close to wear, but a better looking me and more confident me.  i see that i am loosing some of that and i hate that, i want to be confident in myself and the way i look.  i want to look better for adrian as well.

it's a new year

so 2011 has began and so is all the diets and resolution's that everyone makes.  i guess this year that includes me.  i started back to weight watchers 01/06/2011 with starting weight of 196.0 21 pounds over my goal weight so it's back to counting points measuring everything out and drinking all that water everyday.  tonight is my first weigh in since being back on the program and i am alittle nerves about going not really sure how i did this week.  i did keep within my points, no big oopies, and a big cut back on my pop and starbucks :)  i know i have lost something since my pants fit better then they have in awhile.  i feel better but I'm scared with the emotional baggage that i am still dealing with that i will relapse way to easy, but if i am paying ww each month and having to go to a meeting maybe that will hold me accountable to the food that i put in my mouth.  my husband has been a big help this last week.  he is also trying to loose some weight before he hits the ice to play hockey :) the next few months.  i have to say i am liking the new program though i love the fact that fresh fruits and veggies are free 0 points :) love it love it love it!!! so i will keep you posted on how the weigh in goes tonight.

wanted to share

Crockpot Mexican Chicken

3 cans corn niblets
3-4 chicken breasts
3 cans black beans (drained)
1 jar chunky salsa
1 taco seasoning packet

spray crockpot with pam put corn in bottom of pot. place chick (fresh or frozen) on top. sprinkle taco seasoning on top of that pour in jar of salsa Pour beans on top of that Cook on low about 5 hours. After about 4 hours, shred the chicken with a fork (should be tender enough to just shred apart by stirring - or sometimes I'll take out the chicken, shred it up and place it back in the crockpot).i do not put the corn in but put 2 large cans of green chiles on the bottom and i add one more can of black beans.1 cup = 3 points for ww gals

oops...

i messed up this weekend :( my eating was not the best this last weekend i have my extra 35 that i'm sure was used up and some of my activity points as well. but i am back on track today eat a good breakfast and lunch and i have already drank all my water for the day :) i also got up (even though i so wanted to stay in bed) and walked my 2 miles on the treadmill this morning and will be heading to curves for my second workout of the day in just a couple hours (after work). i still have 12 points left for dinner which is spaghetti tonight with whole wheat pasta and my wonderful spaghetti sauce that even Damon likes, and a nice big side salad for me. it's amazing how much easier it is to stay on track during the week when there is more stress from work, home and trying to keep on track, but i honestly think that it is harder on the weekend. what is harder for you the work week or the weekends? any ideas for the weekend eating?

till next time :)

quicky

just a quick note to tell you about my weigh in this morning 184.1 total of 8.9 pounds since last week :) happy dance time :) hope you all have a great weekend.

till next time :)

why??

so why did KFC have to create this? and we wonder why Americans are so over weight, its because of fast food joints that create things like this. so do you know how many calories, and how much fat is in this thing?? let me just tell you 520 cal, 32 grams of fat and 1380 grams of sodium!!! so in WW world this is 13 points for one sandwich. so i could have a 4oz steak,

baked potato and a salad for that many points.

on track

i am still on track with my exercise and eating :) i am doing a great job!! so why didn't i do this before like a year ago??? didn't have that slap in the face to tell my that i have gained weight and i am fat again probably. was told a few weeks ago that i have gained weight and that i need to loose it. ouch what a slap but it woke me up and look at what i have done in just a little over a week. down 7 pounds and able to fix comfortable back into one of my favorite pair of jeans. my hard work is paying off and i need/want to make sure i keep going.

till later :)

the question of the day???

does muscle weigh more then fat???

NOPE it doesn't it weighs the same a pound is a pound. the fat will take up more space then the muscle but it still weighs the same. i just had to post this today since i saw someone on FB say that muscle weighs more then fat.

till next time :)

water water...

why is it so hard to drink water? we know it's good for our body but really that much in one day! so ww says you need to drink at least 6 8oz servings per day and most others say 8 8oz servings per day. so i drink at least my 6 servings and feel like i am in the bathroom every hour on the hour to pee. drinking plain water becomes boring, so i am thankful for the person who first invented the drink singles to add to your bottled water it make the water taste much better lol :)

quick weekend update

okay so i stepped on the scale this morning and i am down to 186.4 :) i am so happy!!! i made sure i drank all of my water (and then some) yesterday since that is my hardest thing on the weekends. wrote everything down that i eat and went for my morning walk on the treadmill. today i am taking the day off from walking but making sure i keep track of my points and drinking all my water. why do weekend have to be so hard?

till next time :)

can it be true...

that i really lost 5.9 pounds in just 3 days??? i got back onto the scale this morning to see how i was doing and i weighed in at 187.1 and 3 days ago it was 193.00. i stepped off the scale reset it and stepped back on to it and it said the same thing so i did a happy dance this morning the bathroom. so the working out twice a day, eating right and drinking all the water is paying off. which i knew it would i just had/have to get my mind back into the mode of looking, reading, weighing, measuring, writing everything, and moving my butt.

till next time :)

one day at a time...

so yesterday was a great day stayed on track and stayed within my point limit for the day of 25, this makes me so happy that i made it the first day and i didn't cheat :) i went and worked out at curves as well. this morning was up before damon and hunter left the house and hit the treadmill for a great walk watching a beautiful sunrise. i walk 1.75 miles this morning and i felt great after words did the dishes, swept the house (mostly all tile) before getting ready for work. i am planning on hitting curves again tonight and hoping to do at least 1 1/2 laps.

till next time :)

Again...

i am trying to get my butt into gear and get back on track. i stepped on the scale this morning and I wanted to cry 193.0 pounds. what the f*%k!! i just can't figure out why i have let myself do this again what is hindering me from getting back on tack and lose weight again? is there something in the back of my mind that i just don't realize that is making me not want this? So far so go but today is day one of the rest of my life.

so is a new plan in order? is a new workout in order? a new lifestyle in order? pray about it more in order? YES to all of these questions. i am sticking with WW i know it works i just have to eat within my points and think about the food that is going to go into my mouth before it goes in then to my butt :) as far as working out i am walking on the treadmill at home in the mornings about 30 minutes at 3 miles per hour and 3% incline for 1.5 miles and now this week i have added curves back into the mix. need to find new foods that will help me stay on track as well. need to do a overhaul in the kitchen and put points on everything. i am going to get back into asking God for help and gaudiness with this battle. oh and to blog more i think this will help get the emotional stuff of my chest.

so this is my starting point i hope this is the time the time for change. wish me luck till next time.

2.6 pounds gained...

when i weighed in monday night!! so that did not make me feel very good at all. i am trying but i just can't seem to find a good habit and in a good grove. so what to do but keep trying each and everyday to get back into the swing of things.

i think a lot of my problem is my personal battles that i am having with my feelings for all the changes that have happened this last year. i still am having a problem dealing with a few things and i just can't seem to get past them. i keep asking for help from God and he is helping but you know the devil always seems to work his way back in and damage the good works. so i am taking each moment as it comes and dealing with my feels the best way i know how. learning to take personal time outs and praying to God for gaudiness and peace and calm in my heart. i was told today that it doesn't matter what other people think of me as long as i am happy and that i am doing my best to live my life right.

okay so enough of that so i have been on the treadmill the last two mornings that makes me happy and makes me feel good.

happy hump day!!

i love you

Just taken time out of my day to tell you that i love you and appreciate all the things you have ever done for me. Life is short so love carelessly. If you get hurt remember what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. What was ment to be will always find its way. Love your haters they are your biggest fans. Kiss with your eyes closed because the best things in life are unseen. Remember every minute you spend unhappy is 60 seconds of happiness you will never get back. Everything happens for a reason. Send to everybody you got love for. Your on the clock you have 10 minutes to send to 10 people or loose the one you love.

still alive and kicking... lol!!

okay so i am trying to get back on track (and just how many times have we heard this one, lol!) so i am on day 3 and doing good with my eating and my drinking of water. i figured out that i have gained almost 10 pounds since January 2009. so i am getting to close to loosing my life time membership with weight watchers so i HAVE to get my butt in gear and get the 10 pounds off. so back on the treadmill i go in the morning and going to curves for women after work. i so wish i was one of those women who could eat what ever when ever she wants, but since i'm not here i am!!! i think i need some really good motivation to get my ass in gear, i need to find some blogs to fallow and give me encouragement. i know i have a few gals that read my and give me encouragement and i "Thank You" for that encouragement. weight loss is the biggest battle that women deal with. so many things, reasons make us want to eat boredom, stress, feelings, problems (past and present) family, and the list goes on and on... so what do we do? how do we change the cycle that we have grown to want and need? i have no clue!!! all i do know is that we have to change our habits and create new ones and new routines, and that is tough really tough to do. so that is why i am here again trying to get back on track wishing that i could stay on track and quite the ups and downs and learn to keep an even pace. so till next time!!

day 2

and i really want dairy queen it's so hot out and i just want ice cream!! this always happens i start out good but fall off so quickly anymore, i have lost my will power to say NO!!!!


points (22 points per day)
2~fiber one cereal and fiver one yogurt
4~starbucks
5~green salad (same as yesturday)


water~
16.9

a new day a new start

so here i go so how long till a blow it? well i know i will not stay within my points on saturday due to i am going shopping then out to lunch with the girls to red robin but i do love one of there salads instead of having a burger so i will feel better about that choice, plus shopping is excirse right? lol!!

points~ 22 per day
4~starbucks :)
2~fiber one cereal & fiber one key lime yogurt (mixed together)
6~green salad (peppered turkey 2oz, fat free 1000 dressing , lettuse, mushrooms, green onion, radis, red bell pepper)
0~diet root beer (4oz)
2~100 cal snack pack
6~pork roat
1~green beans
2~stuffing
2~100 cal snacks
total 25


water count~
50.7

well...

i think it is time to get my ass back in the gym and on the treadmill and start counting all my points again. i have gained to much in the last few months that i am not able to wear a few things :( so tomorrow is a GREAT day to start back on to WW. i know why i have gained all the stress is gone from life and i am happy again so i am eating and not caring what i am eating and how much of it. i am truly enjoying life again and finding my way through life. so the journey starts tomorrow to get these extra pounds off my ASS!!! and with that being said i will keep my blog updated and post my daily happenings (well maybe not everyday).