it's a tuesday

so my weigh in last night did not go the way i wanted it i gained .2 this time. so today i am committed 100% to keep on track and keep within my points and i will take one day at a time and do my very best each day. no more negativity on the gains positive out look to keep me on track. i know i can do this just stay focused on the big (smaller) picture that you will look great.

points~

3 ~ oatmeal
4 ~ chicken cabbage salad
2 ~ bagel and cream cheese
0 ~ hot chocolate and sf vanilla flavoring
2 ~ ww snack pack
4 ~ ww chili
3 ~ corn chips
2 ~ grapes



this made me happy when i got home and found this in my mail box. i love when i get my new ww magazine in the mail. i read it cover to cover word for word.

i have to say that i am really happy today with what i have eaten and that i have keep to my point limit and right now i still have 3 points left at 8:30 pm that's good right now for me.

till tomorrow!!

points what points?

so i did not do so well this weekend at keeping track of my points. saturday was a free for all at my bff's house while scrapbooking, and sunday was not to bad but i did have 3 diet root beers and only 2 glasses of water. so i am back on the ban wagon of being good again, i think i do this every monday :)

okay so my points for today!

3 ~ oatmeal
4 ~ starbucks (i think i said i needed to stay away for a while)
4 ~ chicken cabbage salad
1 ~ 60 cal pudding snack
2 ~ 100 cal snack pack
2 ~ 100 snack pack
2 ~ ww snack pack
53 ~ burger, fries, milk shake (a very bad girl)


wish me luck i have weigh in here a about an hour and i am scared that i will have another gain. i just really heat food (ya right) now. i will post the good or the bad later tonight.

it's friday :)

2 ~ english muffin with butter
4 ~ starbucks
6 ~ subway
1 ~ ww cookie
2 ~ pringle stixs
? ~ went out for dinner at El Palma (mexican)

so my weigh in last night was not so good another week and i gained again .8 so i am at a total loss of 64.2 pounds. i have gained back 6.2pounds in 12 weeks what's up with that. i am just so stressed about this now what happened to enjoying loosing the weight? now it's a battle and i am starting to hate it. someone told me yesterday that i need to cut my carbs out for a few days and that will help drop some weight fast, but what will happen when i start eating my carbs again? why does this have to be so damn hard? i know nothing in life is easy, but this should be i should be at my goal weight by now instead of struggling to get there. the bad thing is that i don't hate my weight i like where i am at but in order to have a life time membership with ww (to not pay anymore) i need to loose more weight i need to be at least 146 pounds can i really make that weight goal? i really think not and i am not sure i want to be that thin i think i would really be happy in the 150's that would get me a couple of sizes smaller and a little lighter. so i am going to talk with my dr. and see what he says about where i should truly be, and i hope he will take me off one of my meds or cut the amount i have to take per day. ok so enough of this.

my point is

4 ~ cereal w/ milk
4 ~ starbucks ( i think i need to cut these out for a few weeks)
7 ~ taco salad
? ~ nilla cakesters (bad girl but they are so good)
2 ~ 100 cal kudo's bar
0 ~ celery stick and pea pods

points

3 ~ oatmeal
3 ~ starbucks (mocha peppermint frap light)
? ~ small muffin
0 ~ green beans
1 ~ mashed potato
4 ~ pork steak
2 ~ 100 cal snack pack
2 ~ ww cookies
3 ~ chips and home made salsa
7 ~ 4 small taco's
2 ~ ww ice cream

not sure what will be for dinner at this time i am thinking either taco salad or taco's with ground turkey.

tuesday's points

3 ~ oatmeal (cinnamon roll)
3 ~ starbucks (carmel frap light)
4 ~ chicken cabbage salad (all my idea)
2 ~ 90 cal snack pack (chocolate mint rice cakes)
1 ~ 100 cal popcorn snack (kettle corn)
0 ~ dt. pepsi
2 ~ ww snack pack
6 ~ pork steak
1 ~ green beans
3 ~ mashed potateo's
1 ~ ww fudge pop

i feel good today even though I did not stay within my points today but i am okay with that. i went and worked out at curves tonight and got a 30 min workout in, that really makes me feel good.

the weekend update.

so my weekend went well except for my eating. man i am so mad at myself for eating like a cow and eating all the wrong things. so what's wrong with me, why do i want to eat everything in sight even when i am full. i eat and eat and i know i am full i can feel it but i can not walk away or push the plate away from me. why is it in my head that i can do this and still try to loos weight, when i really know the truth and that is i will gain every time. i think for the next couple of weeks i am going to track my points on my blog here for everyone to see and hope that i will want to watch what i eat because you all then can judge me about what i am eating. sorry for the ramble, hope you had a good monday.