2.6 pounds gained...

when i weighed in monday night!! so that did not make me feel very good at all. i am trying but i just can't seem to find a good habit and in a good grove. so what to do but keep trying each and everyday to get back into the swing of things.

i think a lot of my problem is my personal battles that i am having with my feelings for all the changes that have happened this last year. i still am having a problem dealing with a few things and i just can't seem to get past them. i keep asking for help from God and he is helping but you know the devil always seems to work his way back in and damage the good works. so i am taking each moment as it comes and dealing with my feels the best way i know how. learning to take personal time outs and praying to God for gaudiness and peace and calm in my heart. i was told today that it doesn't matter what other people think of me as long as i am happy and that i am doing my best to live my life right.

okay so enough of that so i have been on the treadmill the last two mornings that makes me happy and makes me feel good.

happy hump day!!

i love you

Just taken time out of my day to tell you that i love you and appreciate all the things you have ever done for me. Life is short so love carelessly. If you get hurt remember what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. What was ment to be will always find its way. Love your haters they are your biggest fans. Kiss with your eyes closed because the best things in life are unseen. Remember every minute you spend unhappy is 60 seconds of happiness you will never get back. Everything happens for a reason. Send to everybody you got love for. Your on the clock you have 10 minutes to send to 10 people or loose the one you love.

still alive and kicking... lol!!

okay so i am trying to get back on track (and just how many times have we heard this one, lol!) so i am on day 3 and doing good with my eating and my drinking of water. i figured out that i have gained almost 10 pounds since January 2009. so i am getting to close to loosing my life time membership with weight watchers so i HAVE to get my butt in gear and get the 10 pounds off. so back on the treadmill i go in the morning and going to curves for women after work. i so wish i was one of those women who could eat what ever when ever she wants, but since i'm not here i am!!! i think i need some really good motivation to get my ass in gear, i need to find some blogs to fallow and give me encouragement. i know i have a few gals that read my and give me encouragement and i "Thank You" for that encouragement. weight loss is the biggest battle that women deal with. so many things, reasons make us want to eat boredom, stress, feelings, problems (past and present) family, and the list goes on and on... so what do we do? how do we change the cycle that we have grown to want and need? i have no clue!!! all i do know is that we have to change our habits and create new ones and new routines, and that is tough really tough to do. so that is why i am here again trying to get back on track wishing that i could stay on track and quite the ups and downs and learn to keep an even pace. so till next time!!

day 2

and i really want dairy queen it's so hot out and i just want ice cream!! this always happens i start out good but fall off so quickly anymore, i have lost my will power to say NO!!!!


points (22 points per day)
2~fiber one cereal and fiver one yogurt
4~starbucks
5~green salad (same as yesturday)


water~
16.9

a new day a new start

so here i go so how long till a blow it? well i know i will not stay within my points on saturday due to i am going shopping then out to lunch with the girls to red robin but i do love one of there salads instead of having a burger so i will feel better about that choice, plus shopping is excirse right? lol!!

points~ 22 per day
4~starbucks :)
2~fiber one cereal & fiber one key lime yogurt (mixed together)
6~green salad (peppered turkey 2oz, fat free 1000 dressing , lettuse, mushrooms, green onion, radis, red bell pepper)
0~diet root beer (4oz)
2~100 cal snack pack
6~pork roat
1~green beans
2~stuffing
2~100 cal snacks
total 25


water count~
50.7

well...

i think it is time to get my ass back in the gym and on the treadmill and start counting all my points again. i have gained to much in the last few months that i am not able to wear a few things :( so tomorrow is a GREAT day to start back on to WW. i know why i have gained all the stress is gone from life and i am happy again so i am eating and not caring what i am eating and how much of it. i am truly enjoying life again and finding my way through life. so the journey starts tomorrow to get these extra pounds off my ASS!!! and with that being said i will keep my blog updated and post my daily happenings (well maybe not everyday).

hugs...

are there different types? i say yes there are different types of hugs, you don't give your boyfriend/husband the same type of hug as you give your mother, father, brother, sister, etc. the hugs that you give and receive from your boyfriend/husband are different they tell you how much he loves you, cares for you and will protect you. i never thought about the hugs that i gave or received much until a couple of weeks ago and it got me to thinking about what is said with a hug. love, protection, caring, tenderness, compassion, happiness, joy, forgiveness. i am a girl that likes to be hugged and held, i like to know that i am loved and cared for and a hug says thous things to me. the man that i am with now loves to give hugs to the people that he cares most about and he makes me truly happy right now and i can see a future with him.