Tuesday, December 9, 2008

i am me and i am okay!

I wanted to share this with you all I saw it in an office last week and thought I should share it with all of you. Hope you have a great Tuesday!

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”
i posted this on my other blog as well but i thought it really fits over here on my weight loss blog as well. this is so true with how we need to feel about one's self. we have to love our self's even with out little imperfections that we may have. the imperfections make each one of us who we are from the inside out. we all have issues and battles that we deal with each and every day but is it really worth the stress, headaches, and heart aches that we have over these issues. why is it that we can not just love who we are totally and completely with all the imperfections that make us unique and special. i am learning that i am a beautiful women with many things to offer my family and friends. i have also learned about myself that if you feel confident you will be able to do anything that you set your mind to. one last thing is your metal health goes right along with your physical health if one is out of whack the other will be as well.

Friday, December 5, 2008

weight loss update!!

so the stress is starting to easy up some for me. i am finally able to eat 3 meals a day and enjoy eating again. making sure that i am not over eating and eating a ton of junk either. the one this that i have not been able to get back into is drinking all my water in a day. so that is the goal for this next week to get back into drinking my 6 waters a day. i plan on weighing in on Monday night at WW so i can see where i am. i think i will be okay though weighed in this morning at home and i was at 160.7 (that's my lowest so far) so i am making sure i am taking care of me.

speaking of taking care of me i am in counseling i am attending once a week and this last week was my first visit and it really made me feel better. i have homework that i am working on and just about done but when you have not had to do goal setting and thinking about how you want your life to be better it's a little difficult but i am doing it. this whole thing is making me a better person and a strong women for it. yes it totally sucks the big one but i could not live my life the way it was this will all workout for the best i know it i just have to keep telling myself this.

thanks for all the comments and words of encouragement that everyone has left for me. hugs to you all.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


check out my other blog here to see the photo's of my new apartment.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Deep Breath!!

Okay so a few of you know that I have been going through a very very ruff path in my life right now. So here is what's going on in my life, Corey and I have split up and we are filing for divorce. I know this is a BIG shock to alot of you out there but things have happened that can not be taken back and we feel it is best for the both of us to end the marriage. I have moved out and am now living in an apartment here in Hermiston. I will have some photo's for you on my next post. It's a cute little 600 square foot one bedroom apartment on the second floor. I have a great view of the city and it's my new home for at least the next year. I am holding my head up and taking on day at a time and not letting this beat me down. Yes there are moments that I am hurt, mad, sad and can't stop crying but for the most part I am moving on. I am trying to find myself and become a person that I need to be to move forward. I have to say at the moment I really don't like living by myself I went from my parent's and to Corey and we have been married for the last 15 years I have never had to live on my own a BIG change for this girl. But I know this will only make me a stronger women and with my family and friends supporting me I will make it.

I have to say Thank You to my 3 BFF's your the best and thanks to Cindy for letting me go to Church with you. It's been uplifting to know that there is Hope and Forgiveness for me.

I do have a new email address @ theskinnygirlinme@gmail.com